Recovery Log: 02/16/2019

Date: 02/16/2019
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9:00pm
Meal: Dinner
What?: Gluten-free ramen w/ carrots
Location: Home
Company: Alone
Hunger feel: 78%
Hunger: Eaten
Sated: 26%
Binge: 70%
Dehydration: n/a
Excessive drinking: n/a
Excessive sport: n/a
Laxatives: n/a
Purge: n/a
Feelings: Anxiety, Guilt shame
Thoughts: n/a
Moon Phase: 3 day until full moon
Weather: partly cloudy

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7:04 pm 02/16/2019
🚫no self harm: 1 year 6 months 4 days
🚫❌ no porn: 15 hours
🚭 no smoking: RELAPSED

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1 year recovery goal hit. So 1 year and....:

1 MONTH (395 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
2 MONTH (425 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
3 MONTH (455 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
4 MONTH (485 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
5 MONTH (515 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
6 MONTH (545 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
7 MONTH (575 DAYS) MARK HIT
8 MONTH (605 DAYS) MARK HIT
9 MONTH (635 DAYS) MARK HIT
10 MONTH (665 DAYS) MARK HIT
11 MONTH (695 DAYS) MARK HIT
12 MONTH (725 DAYS) MARK HIT
2 YEAR (730 DAYS) MARK HIT

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Time Clean Before Last Relapse: 28 days
Longest Time Clean: 1 year 7 months 2 weeks and 2 days days clean

Recovery Log: 02/15/2019

Date: Friday, 02/15/2019

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1:18 am

Meal: Snack
What?: Gluten-free chicken salad sammich
Location: Home
Company: Kin
Hunger feel: 82%
Hunger: Eaten
Sated: 100%
Binge: n/a
Dehydration: n/a
Excessive drinking: n/a
Excessive sport: n/a
Laxatives: n/a
Purge: n/a
Feelings: Joy, Pleasure, Anxiety
Thoughts: n/a
Moon Phase: 5 days until the full moon
Weather: Sunny
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9:01pm
Meal: Dinner
What?: Baked chicken, carrots, and garlic bread
Location: Home
Company: Alone
Hunger feel: 93%
Hunger: Eaten
Sated: 100%
Binge: n/a
Dehydration: n/a
Excessive drinking: n/a
Excessive sport: n/a
Laxatives: n/a
Purge: n/a
Feelings: Joy, Pleasure, Shame, Anxiety
Thoughts: n/a

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🚫no self harm: 1 year 6 months 4 days (549 days)
🚫❌ no porn: RELAPSED 4 hours ago
🚭 no smoking: RELAPSED 2 hours ago

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1 year recovery goal hit. So 1 year and....:


1 MONTH (395 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
2 MONTH (425 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
3 MONTH (455 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
4 MONTH (485 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
5 MONTH (515 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
6 MONTH (545 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
7 MONTH (575 DAYS) MARK HIT
8 MONTH (605 DAYS) MARK HIT
9 MONTH (635 DAYS) MARK HIT
10 MONTH (665 DAYS) MARK HIT
11 MONTH (695 DAYS) MARK HIT
12 MONTH (725 DAYS) MARK HIT
2 YEAR (730 DAYS) MARK HIT


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Time Clean Before Last Relapse: 28 days
Longest Time Clean: 1 year 7 months 2 weeks and 2 days days clean

Recovery Log: 02/14/2019

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Date: Thursday, 02/14/2019
Time: 12:00am
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6:40am

Meal: Breakfast
What?: Gluten-free chicken noodle soup
Location: At home
Company: alone
Hunger: feel 29%
Hunger: eaten
Sated: 68%
Binge: Done: 72%
Dehydration: n/a
Excessive drinking: n/a
Excessive sport: n/a
Laxatives: n/a
Purge: n/a
Feelings: Anxiety, Shame, Sadness, Guilt, Disgust, Anger
Thoughts: overthinking about the move, bad memories, just generally depressed...
Weather: Sunny. Cold
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10:30pm

Meal: Dinner
What?: nothing
Location: At home
Company: alone
Hunger: feel 97%
Hunger: not eaten
Sated: 0%
Binge: 0%
Dehydration: n/a
Excessive drinking: n/a
Excessive sport: n/a
Laxatives: n/a
Purge: n/a
Feelings: Anxiety, Shame, Sadness, Guilt, Disgust
Thoughts: overthinking about the move, bad memories, just generally depressed...
Moon Phase: 6 days until the full moon
Weather: Partly Cloudy, cool

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Self harm: 1 year 5 month 3 weeks 1 day (546 days) clean
Porn/erotica: 81hrs (3 days & 9 hrs)
Smoking: 20hrs
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1 year recovery goal hit. So 1 year and....:

1 MONTH (395 DAYS) MARK HIT
2 MONTH (425 DAYS) MARK HIT
3 MONTH (455 DAYS) MARK HIT
4 MONTH (485 DAYS) MARK HIT
5 MONTH (515 DAYS) MARK HIT
6 MONTH (545 DAYS) MARK HIT
7 MONTH (575 DAYS) MARK HIT
8 MONTH (605 DAYS) MARK HIT
9 MONTH (635 DAYS) MARK HIT
10 MONTH (665 DAYS) MARK HIT
11 MONTH (695 DAYS) MARK HIT
12 MONTH (725 DAYS) MARK HIT
2 YEAR (730 DAYS) MARK HIT

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Time Clean Before Last Relapse: 28 days
Longest Time Clean: 1 year 7 months 2 weeks and 2 days days clean

Recovery Log 2/13/2019

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Date: Wed. 02/13/2019
Time: 5:57am
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Meal: After-midnight snack
What?: Gluten-free Chicken Salad Sammich
Location: At Home
Company: Alone
Hunger: 70%
Hunger: Eaten
Sated: 100%
Binge: 27% Urge
Dehydration: n/a
Excessive drinking: n/a
Excessive sport: n/a
Laxatives: n/a
Purge: n/a
Feelings: Pleasure, Shame, Guilt, Sadness, Joy, Anxiety
Thoughts: mixed emotions... and Gluten-free chicken noodle soup ready for lunch tomorrow
Moon Phase: First Quarter/Half Moon
Weather: Wet, Foggy

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Self harm: 1 year 5 month 3 weeks (545 days) clean
Porn/erotica: 54hrs
Smoking: 4hrs
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1 year recovery goal hit. So 1 year and....:

• 1 MONTH (395 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
• 2 MONTH (425 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
• 3 MONTH (455 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
• 4 MONTH (485 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
• 5 MONTH (515 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
• 6 MONTH (545 DAYS) MARK HIT ⚔️
• 7 MONTH (575 DAYS) MARK HIT
• 8 MONTH (605 DAYS) MARK HIT
• 9 MONTH (635 DAYS) MARK HIT
• 10 MONTH (665 DAYS) MARK HIT
• 11 MONTH (695 DAYS) MARK HIT
• 12 MONTH (725 DAYS) MARK HIT
• 2 YEAR (730 DAYS) MARK HIT

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Time Clean Before Last Relapse: 28 days
Longest Time Clean: 1 year 7 months 2 weeks and 2 days days clean